New addition to the family

I had a new replacement for the family washing machine yesterday.
So shiok!
Dad was so excited.
Man, it was just a replacement of the old set.
The only BIG difference is the ability to use cold water.
(My old set comes with standard programs, and the temperature of the water is fixed.)

Dad was very happy.
The use of cold water for washing meant that his clothes with elastic bands will last longer.
Heehee... Right.
We even had dinner at Swensen's to celebrate.

Funny, that actually lifted my spirits a teeny weeny bit.
Guess I was depressed over all the decisions I had to make, whether at home or at work.
Geez, does that mean I can't handle stress?

I slept late last night.
In fact I slept late almost every night.
I dunno why, I just can't go to bed, unless I am really really tired.
Waking hours are spent on doing stuff.
Like so much to do, so little time.
I never had time for everything.
And I dun think I am slow in any way.

I have to learn to control my stress.
What I need is a long break, away from everything.
EVERYTHING.

Time of death, 20:31

I officially declared my washing machine dead.
Super dead.
It was bleeding on its side already.
And the main artery burst again.
This time, Dad was the one giving it a heart-attack.

It was after dinner.
Dad walked over, “Hmm, is the show important?”
He knows I don’t like to be interrupted in the middle of a show.
“Nah, it’s ok. What’s up?” I said.
“The washing machine. I dun know what happened. Water is flowing out from the bottom. I checked. The pipe is not leaking.”

Sh*t!! It has been less than 3 months since I had the washing machine fixed.
Now it is giving problems again.

Anyway, I opened the cover and took a long peek.
Gosh… This time the damage is much more.
The water is actually coming out of a hole, where the thermostat is.
And the thermostat has dropped off.
I actually tried to push it back into the hole, but it just won’t fit.
And the belt broke, again.

D*mn! Bad luck seems to follow people who are down and out.
I decided to change a new washing machine.
Maybe a mid-priced one.
I have been saving up for a HP Media Center…
And now part of the “piggy” will have to go to the washing machine first.
I figured that I can live without the new desktop,
But I can’t live without the washing machine. Geez.

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I am so tired. So tired.
I am tired of taking care of people.
I am tired of making decisions, big ones, small ones, minute ones…
I want people to take care of me.
I want other people to make decisions for a change.

To be attached or single???

Someone showed me pictures of a couple renovating their new home.
Nice pictures. Cute couple. Beautiful home.

For that, I am quite happy to have only a roof over my head.
To build a "love nest" with someone is a totally different thing.

I also want to say this:
Attached friends asked me why ain't I married yet.
Married friends says they enjoy single life more...

Sh*t!! Now what? To be attached or single???

I know!!! Just to be in love~~!! Which I am not...
Life is soooo super boring for me right now.
No wonder I keep going back to my beads.

Mmm... Maybe roam on the streets,
Pretend to bump into cute guys in the bookstore... or where-ever...
Later to find out they are married or attached...
Haiz, I give up liao.

I always get the feeling that I was being compared,
And then being dropped for the other girl.
D*mn! I am just not good enough.

I am not witty enough.
I am not pretty enough.
I am not intelligent enough.
I am not elegant enough.
I am not confident enough.
I am not brave enough.
I am not crazy enough.
I am not slim enough.
I am not XXX enough.

Whatever. Life sucks for me right now.

I want to dig a hole and hide, until I feel good enough again.
It is not because of work.
I think I can handle work, but I feel like in a rut right now.
What I need is a sandbag to punch.
Punch until it bleeds.

I think time will heal my wounds... It always does. The problem is when.
Heck!! Meanwhile, I will hide in a corner and cry.

No lah! I will just spend more time with my wonderful beads and clay.
I can find peace with them.

Friend said I just need a close companion to share the anger, laugher, tears and everything else.

Thanks for listening. I feel better already.

Nature's Wonder

Last Friday, I witnessed a colleague becoming a father for the first time.
(Congratulations!! It's a girl!)
You can tell from the look on his face;
So happy, so proud of his little girl.
"She steady one lah! Yesterday, so many people come, she also didn't cry..."
"Lucky she got her mother's ears, which definitely looked better..."
Yeah, and he couldn't stop smiling.

Being a parent is a happy thing, I think.
It's like nurturing a seedling into a tree.
Children always bring joy, especially to the older folks.
Whether they are angels, or tiny demons,
They never fail to make the elders happy.

So what make this tiny bundle so special?
Tiny feet, tiny hands, tiny eyes, tiny nose, tiny mouth, tiny ears...
So tiny and yet make a great impact to people around her.
A tiny bundle with magic powers.
Marvellous.

Eventful weekend

The weekend is over at the blink of an eye.
I spent time with the love of my life,
And in the evening, attend a friend’s BBQ in Ang Mo Kio.
Everybody is talking about the big election taking place here in Singapore.
I got a free holiday, I don’t have to vote.
There is no competition in my constituency.
So I kinda hang around, watching live TV on how other people get on their business, going to the voting stations, doing their duty to the country.
Guess I just had to wait for my turn. Or move.

It’s going to be another 4-day-week next week.
Yup, Friday is Vesak Day.Holiday! Woo-hoo~~!

Pendants Galore!

pendants
Originally uploaded by fiona655.

I made numerous pendants like these over the weekend.
They are made out of polymer clay (Sculpey3, to be exact.)
Sculpey3 seemed to work well so far, but I have read that it is the most brittle of all the clays.
I have a few blocks of Fimo Soft, but have not start using them yet.
Ahh~~ Well...

Clay fever

It has been a while since I updated.
Been busy.
Busy with beading and polymer clay.
I am just so excited with this medium of making beads.
Sure beats going to the shops and searching for particular beads with the exact hue that I want.
I can make my own now.
However, I was limited to rounds, ovals and bicones...
For now.
I hope to improve my craft.

Over the weekend, I was working on pendants.
Maybe you will get to see photos of them posted on Fiona's Bead Bar over next week or so.
(Look for the link on the sidebar.)
I was also busy fulfilling requests to have some of my jewellery pieces duplicated.
I almost never make the same piece twice.
They might look the same, but I always change the beadcaps, or seed beads, etc,
So two pieces are never alike.
That's what you get for handmade jewellery.
Unique-ness.
One-of-a-kind.